Jordan

It's funny how when you ask God for something He gives it to you. For some reason, I never expect Him to do that. I also never expect Him to give me what I ask for the way He chooses to. This has been my Youth With A Mission DTS life story. My whole life I have asked God to teach me how to give Him my heart. Slowly He has been doing this. Even though I had been trying to do this for a while, He still didn't have all of my heart. The start of DTS is I guess what you could call "Mission: Give God ALL of my Heart." DTS started pulling out the heart that was inside of me and bringing it out into the open. I had nothing to hide it behind, which though it sounds scary, was one of the most amazing feelings ever. I learned what it meant to be open and how to trust. I learned how to let God pour into me so that I could pour into others. I learned how to give God my heart. This took God slowly taking away everything that I found more important than Him out of my life. How can you give God your heart if you have already given it to other things? YOU CAN'T! This is where Jordan really comes into play. God basically found everything that was "too" important to me and took it away. As much as I hated it, it was awesome! I learned how to depend on God and love Him no matter what. Dying to your rights is one of the most beautiful things that can be done. It sounds so awful and miserable but it's one of the best feelings ever. When you give your life to God, you feel so fulfilled. As odd as it sounds, if God were to take everything away from me, it would be amazing. Not because I would have nothing, but because as a result I would learn how to replace EVERYTHING with God. When you can learn how to do that, life becomes better than you could ever imagine. Even though God has not taken everything away from me, He has taken what I needed Him to take away from me. As a result, I feel so close to Him. And don't worry- He is giving me those things back, but now I know how to have those things in my life yet still give God the glory He deserves. Now of course I could never actually give God the glory He deserves and never actually give Him my whole heart. I mean, if He had my whole heart I wouldn't sin anymore. But I feel like I'm getting so close and I know that I'm trying my hardest. That is what is the beauty in all this. After seeing what all this has done for me, I want to push you to ask God to teach you how to give Him your whole heart. It may be a crazy journey that is really hard, but I can promise you that you will have no regrets when He has finished with you. So God I ask you, please keep on teaching me how to give you my heart.

Victoria