September 27th - 31st

This was our first week of real classes. John Bills came and talked to us about hearing the voice of God. I am going to try to sum this week in one post though it has been probably one of the most if not the most life changing week of my life. This week we have been challenged to listen to God's voice. This has been awesome cause I have slacked a lot when it comes to listening to God's voice. When I was little I used to talk to God every night in bed and it felt like He was there and we were talking together. I haven't experienced that for a while sense then. So this week really pushed me to get back to that. John pushed us to ask God regularly. "What do you want to tell me?" and "What do you think of me?" So God has been answering both of those and it has been very interesting. Like, I am used to hearing God's voice. The thing is though, I listened to God when I really felt His presence and knew that He had something BIG to tell me. But I never really just BAM, God speak to me! So it's weird just learning to talk to God on the spot, BUT its awesome.

What has God told me?

This is a huge step me saying this, but for a while I have felt God saying that He wants to use me for great things. I have never accepted this and I still am having a hard time excepting this. You see, it's all the thing with not being disappointed. I don't want to look back on my life and know that God never did anything great through me. I still sometimes find myself fearing that this will be what happens. So Im taking a HUGE leap in faith in admitting that I feel like God has told me that.

As I have asked God what He thinks of me I was not getting anything clean... UNTIL! I believe it was on Wednesday of this week God decided to change that. I went to take a nap and guess who decided to speak to me in my sleep, God did! Yeah, I'm still trying to wrap my brain around that. So this is how it went down. Here I am sleeping then all of the sudden I hear, "So Victoria. You know how when you look at your parents you get a lot of correction. They are always bring things to your attention and telling you things you can work on. (My parents are amazing parents and also commend me a lot too. I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea about them because they are amazing. But this is what God was telling me.) Well You know how many times you look at yourself as a fail because of that and like you will never be able to do anything right. On the other hand though, I have placed many other authorities in your life that let you get away with things and never correct you because you have been told that they don't feel worthy. You always fear they will not tell you what you need to hear. Well Victoria, I have made it this way so that you learn to come to me. You try to find what I think of you by going to other people and seeing what they think of you. You can't do this, you have to come to me to find what I think of you and I will tell you what I think of you." So yeah, I woke up because this little girl Tiffany woke me up by running me over with a skooter. I was just like, WOW GOD YOU DO WANT TO TALK TO ME! So that was exciting.

We have also been learning this week how to do intercession. This is where you pray for other people and places asking God to tell you what He wants you to pray for and maybe even some unknowns. We practice this almost every day. Normally we get in small groups and pray that God will put something our heart. Then we go around saying what we think God told us even if it's as crazy and Big Bird (there is a cool story about that btw). It's really neat cause in the end it all ends up tying together. I have enjoyed learning how to do this and that God does want to talk to you. You don't have to wait on Him to be like, Hey Victoria I want to talk to Him. You can be like, Hey God, I want to talk to you. It's so cool. The really exciting thing is that it has made me so excited about my morning devotional. I always am so excited that I get to talk to God... LIKE KING OF KINGS, CRATOR OR THE HEAVENS AND EARTH! Ahhh, it's just so exciting. So to feel that passion again is so refreshing. Man guys I'm in love... WITH GOD!