Sitting At Starbucks

Right no wit is 3:46 Saturday November 20th of 2010. I still have a lot to update in my blog, but I just am really happy right now and without a journal so I thought I would blog about it. I just had lunch with one of my highschool teachers, Shelly Uner. Now I am am just sitting at Starbucks by myself thinking about how great God is. He has blessed me so much and made my time at YWAM such an enjoyable experience. I feel so close to Him and He is always blessing me and doing things for me that make me love Him more and more. I love God and the best thing is, He loves me. I wish everyone could fee how I feel right now, and I hope that this relationship with God only grows.

Another Journal Entry

I wanted to share another journal entry conversation with God that I had:

God, what do you think of me?

Dear beloved, you are beautiful. Oh man, I had fun making you. I gave you a quirkiness that I delight in and love watching others delight in even when you don't notice. I have made you a princess and a holy temple for me to dwell in. I have kept you mine, my little treasure. You will be given away and you will be loved more than most. Your husband will never cease to grow to love you for I have made you to know my love so that you may share it. You will change lives because of what I have done through you. I love you my beloved, now go in peace.

So yeah when God told all of this to me, it was kind of a big deal because these helped assure some fears that I had. And just helped assure me of his love for me. I know its a lot in small but yeah it was cool that God would just give me peace about so much with such little. GOD IS GOOD!

Novembver 1st-5th

Just to start off this week, on Monday, I got to sing for worship, so that was fun!

This week we had Stephanie's Dad, Steve Sizemore. I really enjoyed this week. We learned about Intimacy With God. This week was full of good surprises. Here are some of the surprises: We got to meet the Nashville base this week, so that was exciting. So yes, for those of you who do not know, YWAM is all over the world. You can find theme everywhere! Voting went on at our base, so we had to work around that too. I ended up having to sing in from of like a couple hundred of people that day and I didn't know I was going to be doing that until a few hours before I did that. It was exciting, except for the fact I didn't know many of the worship songs that well. I found out some of us, including me, got a sense that our Jordan outreach team was going to run into royalty while we were there. So that was exciting. And yeah basically all this week was amazing! I really enjoyed feeling like I was getting to know God better!

October 25th-29th

This week was probably my favorite. We had Al McBryan. He asked all the hard questions. Like Im talking freewill/predestination questions. I love LOVE love having hardcore conversations and debates about theological things. So this is what this week consisted of. I loved it! My brain was totally dead this week though, I thought so hard about SO MUCH! But man I enjoyed it. I love deep theological conversations. I even got his skype so that I could ask him my hard questions I had.

Acting on Ideas

One thing that I love about YWAM is that when I have an idea, I get to act on it and those around me help me with it. It hit me this week that I didn't really know anyone in our neighborhood that well, so I asked Andreas, one of the staff if we could have a neighborhood party and he said yes. So that Saturday I went around and handed invites to all of our neighbors and then went shopping for the party then we had it. It went so well. I got to meet a lot of people in our neighborhood and we may have even recruited some of the people to join YWAM. Turns out a lot of my neighborhood is awesome Christians. I know our 2 neighbor girls well now. They are my age so we have become pretty good friends though we hardly see each other with our busy lives. It is just cool how God blesses things like that. I really enjoyed the party and how it turned out!

October 20th

So I just wanted to write down my journal entry for this day.

God, what do you want to tell me this morning as I do my devotions?

Great are the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Victoria, I love you want to use you for my kingdom. This means dyeing to self and living in me for I am God. I will guide your paths and do not fear for I am with you, Do everything unto me and watch, just watch how I bless that, for I will make sure all glory comes to me. And yes, I love to glorify myself through you. So watch in expectancy and prepare to be amazed. Prepare your heart now, engage in battle for my kingdom. The enemy cannot kill you for you are already dead to him, but living in me who gives you eternal life. So why be fearful of one who cannot even lay a finger on you without my permission. So fight strong in my name, for in that name all is possible, for I am God, creator of the Heavens and earth. OH you of little faith, watch in expectancy for I am coming soon to bring my kingdom on earth. For I am a God of love. I sent my son for you, so why do you doubt. You sing of my greatness all the time, but do you believe it? Oh how I love you and long to reveal myself to you. Just look at the moon adn the stars, all my creation and see me. Let me reveal myself to you through what I have put around you. For I am God and this is good.

Jordan

Just a heads up for Jordan. Kristen and I will be in charge of photography. It's just cool that I get to use one of my passions for GOD! Haha, neat how God gives us passions and then uses them for His glory.

Crazy Mary 7 Might Nations October 18th-22nd

This week was a great week because Crazy Mary came talked with us. This is what we all call her. Just to give you a brief overview of what she is like, she opened us once by saying, "It's hard being 72 and still being a sex goddess!" She is who really helped Michael Berg, our founder, get his life together with God and start following Christ. She is truly an amazing person who changed my life more than most people have just within 1 week!

Monday morning I had something cool happen. I was doing my devotions and I prayed that God would give me something for intercession and right then He said, "Close your eyes to what is around you in order to see what I want you to see." That was cool because it ended up being a big deal with the intercession we had. As a matter of fact we ended up getting a warning for a YWAM base that is across the world. We told someone who was really involved there and they were just in shock because everything God told us was exactly what they were going through. So they got the warning. It's just awesome how God is using our little Orlando base to help bases across the world.

But back to intercession, Marry would just randomly call people out and have us all pray for them in the middle of class. So I found that cool. She had such genuine love for everyone. It's amazing when someone knows how to show such genuine love so well. Basically her teaching on the 7 Mighty Nations, those are things that God has told us to destroy that we have not destroyed. So some it is that God doesn't love you, some it's that your not worthy, some it's doubt. Things that are not true that you still believe. Mine was that I didn't believe God wanted to do great things with me and that he did want to talk to me. I realized even more that I felt like I had to earn God's love through good works. WELL Ezra prayed for me and well yeah man, GOD LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM AND THE BEST PART IS I BELIEVE IT! And, God wan't to do great things with my life. Ahhh man, I'm just so excited for the future.

We prayed for all of this stuff the last day. It was so awesome to watch. Like everyone got so freed of so many things. You could feel bondages released in that room that night it was so cool! :D

Sorry

Sorry everyone I have not updated for a while. YWAM got super busy with the 50th and SE Conference. But now that is over, so Im going to try to update to where I am now. Luckily I do have an up to date journal, so I don't have to depend on my memory.